Chapter 132 The one I love the most is the one I miss the most

Cen Dongsheng once again arrived at the battlefield where his elder sister and younger sister were confronting each other.

And he quickly found the two of them.

……

“This place…”

The first thing that catches your eye is the large number of collapsed houses and ruins on the periphery; going further inward, you will see a surface covered with dense cracks and charred charcoal marks spreading outward, which are probably the remaining traces of the previous explosion.

Cen Dongsheng looked around.

The only good news is that he didn’t see any dead bodies.

It should be that Sister Zhizhen asked everyone nearby to evacuate before the fight between the two started.

But to be honest, he didn’t know whether there were really no victims, or whether there was no ashes left of the victims…

Cen Dongsheng would not have had this question at first, but when he saw that in a certain direction, there were not even ruins or building wreckage left, only a large abrupt blank area as if it had been wiped away by someone, he became uncertain again.

No matter what others say, King Pingdeng really has such a trick, which can completely erase a place from the world without leaving any trace of its existence.

“Also, Sister Zhizhen and Qingyan are not here…”

Could it be that the battle is really over?
How is the result?

Cen Dongsheng didn’t have time to think about these questions. He continued to move towards his destination and entered the center of the empty battlefield.

The space here is filled with white traces, exuding a dangerous atmosphere. Ordinary people will be chopped into pieces if they approach.

“Dongsheng, I’m here.”

He heard a weak voice and hurried over, only to see An Zhizhen standing in the shadow in the corner.

“Sister Zhizhen! Are you not hurt?”

Cen Dongsheng hugged her tightly and carefully examined An Zhizhen’s body until the woman in his arms’ face turned red, then he breathed a sigh of relief.

No injuries.

However, he was careful enough to notice that the beautiful long hair, which was as black as ink and originally fell almost to the waist, was clearly missing a section.

“what happened?”

“I’m fine,” the woman said, “I just overused my abilities, and… I’m scared. I’m worried that I’ll never see you again.”

“Fear?”

Cen Dongsheng asked subconsciously.

He never thought that there was something in this world that could scare An Zhizhen.

“Yes, Sister Qingyan is much more powerful than me. I almost died in her hands. How could I not be afraid?”

Cen Dongsheng looked at the flawless face with fine beads of sweat on it, and felt a little wetness on his palm that was supporting the woman’s back.

Even though she wasn’t afraid, Sister Zhizhen was indeed feeling nervous.

Almost lost his life…?
He sighed secretly, and then heard An Zhizhen say to him:

“Okay, let’s put my affairs aside. Yi Qingyan is still waiting for you. You must seize this opportunity. If you succeed, you can drive a deeper wedge into your will to collapse. But if you miss it, it will be difficult to get it back.”

“What? Did you do that—”

“it’s me.”

The woman admitted it without hesitation.

At that moment, complicated thoughts flashed through Cen Dongsheng’s mind.

In the previous conflict, Qingyan seemed to have almost killed Sister Zhizhen; but it seemed that An Zhizhen was secretly instigating this incident.

What’s going on? The man took a deep breath and realized that now was not the time to judge who was right or wrong…

“I will be right back.”

*
After saying goodbye to An Zhizhen, Cen Dongsheng finally found Yi Qingyan in an alley near the edge of the old city.

Although she was the one who won the battle, the little girl now looked even more miserable than Sister Zhizhen. Her body was covered in blood, her messy hair covered her face, and she walked unsteadily, as if she might fall down at any time.

Just as Cen Dongsheng was about to get closer, his muscles tensed up unconsciously, he stopped subconsciously, and took a breath.

The fierce murderous intent filled every corner like a tidal wave, making it suffocating.

“If you get close, you will die” – every inch of muscle in the body is consciously sending out a warning.

To be honest, just standing here, I feel like my immortal power is about to be activated.

The man looked down at her and noticed a large, expanding black shadow beneath her feet, twisting as if it had substance, covering the entire street…and its length was as far as the eye could see.

What’s happening here?
Combined with the conversation with Sister Zhizhen just now, Cen Dongsheng had a vague guess: Is the power of the life ban in “Infernal Hell” out of control?

Yi Qingyan seemed to hear some noise coming from nearby. She raised her head, and the moment she saw Cen Dongsheng, the little girl’s expression froze for a moment, then she turned and walked away, trying to get rid of him.

Cen Dongsheng rushed forward without hesitation.

According to common sense, he would definitely not be able to catch up – as long as Yi Qingyan used the words “This is the place without a break”.

But for some reason, she hesitated for a moment before using teleportation, as if she had not yet made up her mind.

Then, Cen Dongsheng ran up from behind and hugged her in his arms.

“Let me go…”

The delicate body in his arms twisted as Cen Dongsheng held her waist tightly, gently smoothed her messy hair with his fingers, and looked down at her face.

What he saw was a pair of scarlet pupils and a pretty face whose expression kept changing in painful struggle.

“I won’t let go.”

Cen Dongsheng said in a low voice.

“W-why…?”

“It’s just a feeling.”

He sighed.

“I always feel that if I let go of you now, you will run away to a very far place… I don’t like this, please forgive my willfulness.”

“I……”

The girl twisted her arms. She could have easily gotten rid of it, but she never used her ability. After a while, she stopped struggling and fell silent.

It seemed that she didn’t want to leave.

“Were you bullied by Sister Zhizhen? I’m sorry I couldn’t be with you.”

Cen Dongsheng put his mouth close to her ear. The lovely, round earlobes like jade beads were stained with warmth due to the man’s hot breath.

“Don’t… You make me sound so weak that I can only be bullied by bad women…”

Yi Qingyan complained weakly, but subconsciously curled her shoulders so that she could get closer to the young man’s chest.

Cen Dongsheng breathed a sigh of relief.

To be honest, he was a little worried at first; even now, his muscles were still tense in the murderous aura around him, but at least she herself didn’t resist too much –

Just as he was thinking this, the girl in his arms seemed to realize something and struggled again, this time with much greater strength than before.

“No, no…”

Yi Qingyan seemed to be having a nightmare, with sleepy breaths coming out from between her lips and teeth.

“We can’t go on like this…!”

Cen Dongsheng was shocked. It wasn’t just her who had changed. The strange atmosphere around her also became heavy and sticky.

“This is–“

The premonition of danger grew stronger, pricking his spine like needles.

Cen Dongsheng’s eyes unconsciously moved downwards. When he saw the shadows changing under his feet, the man was stunned:

The darkness spread like a surging tide, and from the bottomless abyss, a scarlet scene of hell emerged, and the dead souls screamed in the shackles of flesh and blood.

This is the true face of “Infernal Hell”…? !

He quickly looked at her in his arms again. In her clear eyes, the colors of madness and murderous intent were becoming more and more vivid, dyeing his pupils red.

But that’s not the point –

Yi Qingyan raised her fingers and lowered her eyes.

“Here…” There were true words mixed in with her panting. Originally, she didn’t need to recite them, but in her current state, she obviously couldn’t use her abilities normally, so she had to use words to strengthen her will.

She wants to escape!

At this time, Cen Dongsheng naturally understood why she wanted to escape.

The power of the life ban was out of control. Qingyan didn’t want to hurt herself, so she wanted to stay away.

but……

The words that Sister Zhizhen had just said to him flashed through his mind.

In fact, there was no need for her to remind him, Cen Dongsheng’s instinct had already told him the answer:
If he fails to hold on at this moment and lets go of the girl’s hands, he will definitely regret it in the future.

then……

As my mind raced, an idea came to my mind, which I wasn’t sure whether it would work or not.

He had no other choice. Following his own instinct, Cen Dongsheng bent down without hesitation and said a word.

At that moment, Yi Qingyan’s pupils dilated due to shock, reflecting the face of the man who suddenly approached.

——The lips fit together like this.

The man kissed the girl’s lips.

“…!”

I don’t know if it was simply because he didn’t react, or for some other reason… Yi Qingyan didn’t dodge and was kissed hard.

He enjoyed the tender and smooth touch of her lips, which was fascinating.

The kiss did not last long, like a dragonfly touching the water, and Cen Dongsheng quickly took the initiative to separate their lips.

The hot and wet feeling is like tasting the most delicious fruit in the world. The distance is so close that you can hear the echo of each other’s heartbeats. This intimacy makes men reluctant to leave.

But he still raised his head. Now was not the time to go deeper.

The scarlet murderous intent and madness faded from those clear and bright big eyes for a moment, leaving only the shyness and panic that were in line with the girl’s nature.

Her pretty face was as beautiful as a peach, and she stammered:
“My brother is also a bad man… He actually did such a thing to keep me…”

Those dark pupils, as wet as a deer in the woods, stared at his face so close to him without blinking.

“It was…my first kiss…”

Although she was complaining, there was no trace of disgust or aversion on her face.

……

Seeing her reaction, Cen Dongsheng couldn’t help but breathe a sigh of relief.

That’s right, although it might sound like hooliganism, this was the only solution he could think of.

Taking away the girl’s precious first kiss, making her forget to escape out of shock and shyness… So far it seems to be working pretty well.

However, it was not my first kiss, Cen Dongsheng thought in a very scumbag style at this time, my share had already been given to another woman.

The thought was fleeting. Under normal circumstances, this kind of unpleasant line could be said as a joke, but if it was said at this time, it felt absolutely ruined.

“This is ‘entertaining people with beauty’, and it seems to be working quite well.”

He said half jokingly.

“What… Didn’t my brother take the initiative to ask for it…?”

Yi Qingyan puffed up her cheeks, as if she was dissatisfied. Cen Dongsheng quickly hugged her tightly and whispered to comfort her, expressing his feelings:
“Of course, Qingyan, this is what I want… what I have always wanted the most.”

People should have self-knowledge. The most important thing is to be honest with yourself and not deceive yourself when facing desires.

He came clean, he just wanted to hug both of them, no matter if it was Sister Zhizhen or Sister Qingyan, he would not let go.

Even if the target is the Philosopher King and the Equality King, it is incredibly difficult to have the best of both worlds; if there are others who can see the future, they will definitely think that this is an even more ridiculous dream than becoming the “King of Curses”…

But Cen Dongsheng was still determined not to deceive himself anymore.

Therefore, although he felt that the timing was a bit abrupt and that his sudden attack was a bit despicable in forcefully taking away the girl’s first kiss, he would not regret the result itself.

Under normal circumstances, he might have to consider the timing and occasion, but at such a critical moment just now, Cen Dongsheng naturally would not hesitate.

Yi Qingyan turned her head away, her expression recovering from shock and shyness.

It seems that she really doesn’t care that her first kiss was taken away by Cen Dongsheng. After all, it was given to the right person… The little girl cares about other things.

“…Even if my brother sells his body, it can only last for a while.”

Her tone seemed teasing, with a slightly bitter smile.

“This out-of-control state is not over yet. I will lose my mind again soon.”

“It will be enough to maintain it for a while.” Cen Dongsheng said in a deep voice, “Take this opportunity to tell me everything you wanted to say but didn’t have time to tell me.”

Yi Qingyan fell silent again. After a long while, she spoke softly.

“Brother…I have a secret to tell you.”

“Yeah, I’m listening.”

“–I love you.”

This time it was Cen Dongsheng who fell silent. He did not expect to hear the girl’s sincere confession at this time.

The man did not respond immediately because he knew that the conversation was not over yet.

“But, I noticed something recently… No, actually I had nightmares about my relatives when I was a child, but I didn’t understand why at that time. It wasn’t until I got my brother’s permission and began to accept the other side of myself that I realized… Love and desire may be two sides of the same coin. Strong love can inadvertently turn into strong desire—”

Yi Qingyan turned her head again and stared at Cen Dongsheng’s eyes. Her beautiful eyes were covered with a layer of hazy mist and her voice trembled slightly.

“It is precisely because I like you and regard you as my brother more important than anything else that my desire for you is the strongest…”

What is Yi Qingyan’s strongest desire?
The answer speaks for itself.

Although she has been suppressing herself, trying to master her abilities and control her desires, the hideousness hidden deep in her heart always surfaces from time to time.

“Brother, I’ve already told you that I’m a bad kid, ok? The kind that’s hopeless…”

Yi Qingyan grabbed his arm and buried her face deeply in his arms.

The weight pressing on his chest and the tight force from her fingers fully conveyed her attachment; however, the words that came out of her mouth made Cen Dongsheng hold his breath involuntarily and his whole body stiffened.

“I have always wanted so badly…”

“——I really want to kill you.”

(End of this chapter)