Su Ye’s long hair was entangled in Xi Yu’s fingertips. The electric-like touch started from Xi Yu’s slightly twisted fingers and spread to the roots of Su Ye’s hair, making her feel numb and tingling, and Su Ye’s back couldn’t help but shake slightly.

It was a very familiar touch, and Su Ye had never thought too much about it.

Xi Yu had always liked touching his hair, touching it here and there. He attributed this sense of familiarity to a habit and never thought of anything else.

But thinking back, he hated having his hair touched so much, but when Xi Yu touched him, he didn’t feel disgusted or avoid it.

Su Ye looked at the strand of hair between Xi Yu’s fingers, “Why do you always like to play with my hair?”

When was the first time Xi Yu touched his hair out of impulse? Su Ye couldn’t quite remember.

But he thought, for some unknown reason he did not feel too disgusted at that time, otherwise he would not have given Xi Yu the room to become even more aggressive in the future.

When Xi Yu touched him, he only felt a sense of security after a long absence.

It was as if something like this had happened long, long ago, in the years that he had forgotten because of the shadow of his childhood. There was a little boy who quietly, pretending to be nonchalant, sat beside him and touched his hair.

There are also the purple flowers swaying in the breeze as mentioned by Xi Yu.

But Su Ye was still a little sad because of Xi Yu.
“I failed to keep my promise.”

Xi Yu propped up his head with one hand and tilted his head to look at Su Ye, while his other hand was still moving. “Why do you say that, Shui Shui?”

Su Ye quickly pursed her lips, and glanced at Xi Yu with her beautiful eyes, pressing her fingertips on her knees, “We agreed on it at the time, but in the end -“

“We did agree.”

Xi Yu tucked Su Ye’s long hair behind her ears, and his fingers gently stroked Su Ye’s earlobe, then reached into Su Ye’s long hair and pressed it.

Su Ye’s hair was very sensitive, and his narrow and thin waist straightened immediately. The uncontrollable feeling of loss just now disappeared, and turned into an even more uncontrollable emotion.

“So later on you grew your hair long, I waited for you, and we went on stage together.”
Xi Yu’s voice was so clear that it helped Su Ye’s melancholy mood to stabilize.

“What are you doing!”

An Sijia’s voice came from outside the door. She and Jiang Congfeng were standing at the door, looking in. She deliberately cleared her throat and glanced at Xi Yu.

Jiang Congfeng was behind him, with no expression on his face, but his eyes fell on Su Ye’s slightly furrowed brows.
“Brother, are you feeling unwell? Did you bring the aerosol?”

Su Ye’s back instantly pressed against the back of the chair like a spring, avoiding Xi Yu’s eager fingers.

The four of them left the sanatorium. It was An Sijia’s first time in Geneva. She was so excited that she intentionally or unintentionally pulled Jiang Congfeng to other places and they soon got separated.

Passing by a flower shop, there was one last bunch of lilacs left, so Xi Yu bought it for Su Ye.

Su Ye was a little worried and looked back frequently, and Xi Yu put his arm around her shoulders.
“We are all adults now. Don’t worry about them. Worry about me, brother.”

Su Ye suppressed his laughter, knowing that Xi Yu’s temper was at work, and coaxed him like a child, “Okay, I’m most worried about you.”

Unexpectedly, after saying this, Xi Yu leaned over slightly and rubbed Su Ye with his cheek like a little animal, messing up Su Ye’s long hair slightly and sticking it to the side of her face, making Su Ye look a little dazed and cute.

“Me too.”

Su Ye’s voice became a little nasal due to the cold wind, “Hmm?”

Xi Yu mimicked every word, “I am most worried about you.”

The temperature by the lake is always much lower at night. Su Ye didn’t react for a moment. He stood on the plank road, staring blankly at Xi Yu as he carefully buttoned his clothes for him, took off the scarf from his neck, and wrapped it around Su Ye. He also considerately helped Su Ye to tidy up his long hair, which was bulging against the scarf.

“When the wind is strong, you should wear more clothes, button your clothes up to the top, don’t just gather your scarf together casually, and cover your ears. Don’t be distracted when walking, stand in a sheltered place when waiting for someone, and take off your scarf and hat when getting on the bus, otherwise it will be even colder when you get off.”

Su Ye became more and more confused as he listened, and pulled Xi Yu’s hand, “What are you talking about?”

Xi Yu continued, “The dark blue color suits you too.” He straightened the thick wool scarf, making it look loose and warm.

Su Ye opened his eyes slightly, but his brain was unable to react, “Xi Yu?”

Xi Yu raised his head and stared at Su Ye from bottom to top with his delicate peach blossom eyes. His raven-black eyelashes and slightly messy bangs swayed in the wind.

This time, Su Ye wore the pure white cotton coat again, with a dark blue scarf, a hat with a big ball of wool, and even the bag she carried was exactly the same as the day she returned home.

It was exactly the same figure that Xi Yu had encountered at the airport in his memory after not seeing him for five years.

But the difference was that back then, all that was left to him was a back view, but now this person was standing in front of him, looking at him, with a few ice crystals on his eyelashes, reflecting fine silver light.

“That’s what I was thinking when I saw you at the airport.”

If Su Ye was in front of him at that time, he would not have bothered to say anything and would have wrapped Su Ye up first.

Unfortunately, there were so many people between them at that time that they disappeared in the blink of an eye.

But now Su Ye was standing in front of him again. It was not him who went after her, but Su Ye who took the initiative to stay by his side.

Su Ye’s brows were slightly furrowed, but his eyes were very gentle, and he asked the question that he had wanted to ask for a long time.
“Weren’t you angry?”

Because Su Ye was looking at Xi Yu very carefully, Xi Yu answered very straightforwardly: “Angry.”

He was so angry that he didn’t think about anything and got into the car and chased after Su Ye.

Su Ye did not move his eyes away, but waited seriously and quietly for Xi Yu’s next words.

“But I’m more worried about your health than being angry.”
“You were wearing this at the time, with a hat and a scarf. It looked tight, but it was actually loose and couldn’t keep out the wind at all.”

Su Ye laughed, “Why are you so demanding?”

Xi Yu also laughed, and after laughing for a while, he said quietly, “This way I can have a legitimate reason to go up and touch you, right?”

Su Ye blinked, “Then there’s nothing to worry about.”

Xi Yu didn’t say anything. Although the obstacles ahead had been cleared, those things had left indelible marks on Su Ye.

Su Ye had a horrifying wound on the back of his head, a problem that would confuse time from time to time, asthma that would easily relapse when he was exhausted or cold, and auditory hallucinations that would linger in his ears from time to time.

Su Ye recovered, but not completely.

Xi Yu hooked Su Ye’s fingers, “But I’m still worried about you, what should I do.”

Su Ye’s eyes were very obedient, or perhaps a kind of pampering towards Xi Yu who was helpless, “Well, what should I do?”

“Oh, it’s Ye!”
Not far away, a little old lady came over, carrying a bag of wool with intricate patterns and pushing up her glasses. It was Su Ye’s neighbor across the street.

“Wow, is this your friend? So handsome.”

Xi Yu raised his eyebrows, and before Su Ye could answer, the old lady spoke again with a smile.

“I just passed by the post office over there, and the guy inside asked me how I was doing lately.”

Xi Yu asked sensitively, “Young man?”

The old lady smiled mysteriously and nudged Su Ye with her elbow, “We have many suitors, don’t you know?”

Xi Yu put the tip of his tongue against his lower teeth and looked at Su Ye in a fake manner, “Is that so? I really don’t know.”

Su Ye blinked hurriedly, trying to signal the old lady. But the old lady was talkative, and when she met a cooperative listener like Xi Yu, she didn’t even notice Su Ye who was trying to raise his finger while holding his scarf down.

The old lady was very excited. “There are both young girls and young boys. Ye is very popular. There are even people who come here every day just to talk to Ye.”

Xi Yu stretched out his voice, “Ah, then our Ye is really extraordinary.”

“Isn’t that right?” The old lady patted Su Ye.

Su Ye didn’t want to lie in front of Xi Yu, so he whispered, “Yes, right.”

Su Ye’s white five fingers pressed on the dark blue scarf, his eyes were wandering, and the tip of his nose was red, which made Xi Yu feel hot in his heart.

“But,” the old lady continued, “maybe they saw that Ye had no intention of falling in love, so the boys and girls stopped doing that.”

The old lady chatted for a few more words and then waved goodbye to the two of them.

After she left, Xi Yu deliberately leaned close to Su Ye’s ear and whispered, “It turns out that brother has so many suitors.”

It is impossible to say that he is not jealous. Xi Yu does not want to think about the scene of Su Ye being courted by many men, lest he get distracted.

Su Ye’s ears were tickled by Xi Yu, so he hid to the side, rubbed his earlobe, and complained softly, “What are you doing?”

Xi Yu stopped teasing him, “But brother is so outstanding, it’s normal for him to have suitors. Why did he have none later?”

The two were walking side by side. After Xi Yu asked this question, Su Ye suddenly stopped and most of his face was hidden in the woolen scarf, revealing his slightly messy light-browed hair and a pair of soft eyes with a hint of heat coming out of the corners of his eyes.

“Because.” Su Ye whispered, the cold air from the lake rushed into his mouth, but his tongue was still burning with shame, “I told them–“

“What?” Xi Yu didn’t hear clearly, so he stopped, bent down, and put his ear close to Su Ye’s face.

Then he heard Su Ye’s soft and dense voice floating in like snowflakes.
“I said, I have a boyfriend.”

After saying this, Su Ye noticed that Xi Yu did not move, and still maintained the posture of leaning over to listen. After a long while, Xi Yu finally spoke, “Shui Shui, can you say it again?”

Su Ye’s half face hidden behind the scarf was revealed. He opened his mouth and gently bit the tip of Xi Yu’s ear, protesting softly, “You clearly heard it.”

Xi Yu’s posture was very gentlemanly and his tone was very serious, “But how can I be sure if this is just an excuse you use to get rid of me?”

Su Ye was stunned for a moment, then he felt at a loss whether to laugh or cry.

Xi Yu was indecent again, “Who is your boyfriend then? Is he a nice guy?”

Su Ye kicked Xi Yu with the tip of his shoe, and his nose rubbed the warm scarf, and his voice was muffled.
“His name is Xi Yu. He is a very nice person, very talented, and very handsome.”

“Oh then you must have known each other for many years?”

Su Ye said vaguely, “Yeah, it’s been many years.”

Xi Yu’s voice was filled with polite and sincere curiosity, “Do you like him very much?”

Su Ye paused for half a second, then nodded vigorously up and down. His long light golden hair floated out with the movement, slightly curling up.
“Well, I like him very much. I like him very much.”

Xi Yu’s voice was already filled with a hint of laughter that he couldn’t suppress, along with a strange look of regret, “Ah, then it looks like I don’t have much of a chance.”

Su Ye scratched Xi Yu’s palm with his fingertips, “Shame on you, it’s embarrassing.”

Xi Yu answered naturally, “Boyfriend, it’s not shameful.”

Now that everything has settled, the two strolled along the lake, holding hands.

“it’s beautiful.”

They stopped by the lake and looked at the distant sky, which was illuminated by the lights and turned into a deep blue, and the faint mountains accompanying the quiet lake.

“I want to take a picture.” Su Ye took out his mobile phone, took a picture of the sky, and then opened the WeChat list.

He doesn’t have the habit of contacting anyone regularly and only sends messages to the few people he knows well.

There was a click sound from the side. Su Ye lowered his head and flipped through the message page. He heard Xi Yu also say “So beautiful.”

Ding dong.
A contact who hadn’t spoken for a long time jumped to the top of the conversation bar.

[?]:[picture]
Su Ye clicked it blankly.

The photo loads.

Under the ultramarine sky, a person wearing a woolen hat, a dark blue scarf, and long light blond hair lowered his head slightly, revealing a very beautiful profile.

Su Ye looked at it for a long time, then suddenly raised his head and asked, “Is this you?”

Xi Yu said nothing and looked at Su Ye with a smile.

When Su Ye just came back, he always wanted to take a step forward awkwardly, but he was afraid that the person in front of him would run away, so in the end he could only choose this method of circling around to get closer to Su Ye.

Su Ye was shocked and stood by the lake for a long time. Finally, Xi Yu began to worry that Su Ye was angry, so he touched Su Ye, and Su Ye came to his senses.

He looked through Xi Yu’s WeChat again, whose ID was “Y”. He compared them repeatedly and his eyes stayed on the background picture of Xi Yu’s Moments.

He had seen it before, but it was a mottled reflection under the shadow of the street lamp. However, Su Ye never understood what it was.

Su Ye was a little depressed, “So that’s how it is”

There was a charming street lamp beside the lakeside path, which just happened to shine diagonally over Su Ye’s head. In a blink of an eye, he could see his own shadow clearly.

Then Su Ye’s breathing paused.

The reflection was mottled and flashing with tiny spots of light. It was the light from the street lamp that passed through the leaves of the lilac in his hand and cast on the ground.

“So that’s how it is”

Xi Yu felt a rare sense of discomfort. “Ah, this is what I took five years ago when I ran out to buy flowers after you agreed to confess your love to me.”

Su Ye remembered that he seemed to have heard Xiao Yang muttering that Xi Yu was love-brained, and he couldn’t help but burst out laughing.

He looked out at the lake quietly for a moment, then spoke again.
The topic jumps around a lot.

“You just said you were worried about me and asked me what to do.”

Xi Yu liked to push aside Su Ye’s long hair that was floating in the wind and comb it properly, “Yeah.”

Su Ye was silent for a while, then spoke as if he was telling a story.

“When my mother’s condition was at its worst, she cried and said that it would have been better if she hadn’t given birth to me.”

Xi Yu listened quietly. He instinctively realized that the meaning of Su Yun’s words was definitely not what it sounded like.

Because Su Yun is essentially the same as Su Ye, a very gentle person, even too soft-hearted.
But this sentence still sounds very sad.

“Is it a bit uncomfortable?” Su Ye’s gentle voice sounded, “But that’s not what she meant.”

Su Yun cares for Su Ye more than anything else she has.

She said that Su Ye had suffered too much, and if she had not given birth to Su Ye, perhaps Su Ye would not have suffered so much.
She said that Su Ye’s birthday even took precedence over people’s cheers for the New Year.

“When I was in the most pain, I wondered why my mother gave birth to me. Survival itself seemed to be a kind of suffering.”

After listening to this, Xi Yu couldn’t help but reach out and grab Su Ye, fearing that Su Ye would float away like a cloud again.

When he exerted a little force with his five fingers, Su Ye also clasped his hands tightly, with their palms touching and inseparable.

“But I still think it’s great to be born and to be a human being.”

Xi Yu had thought about this countless times in private: Su Ye looks fragile, but he is actually very strong most of the time.
So strong that Xi Yu asked, “Why?”

Su Ye turned his head, his eyes slightly curved, his cheeks flushed, and he stared at Xi Yu.
“Only in this way can I meet you.”

Su Ye spoke slowly, his voice blending into the wind, but every word reached Xi Yu’s ears, extremely clear and warm.

“what can we do about it?”
Su Ye muttered to himself, stretched out a finger and pressed down the scarf.

However, before he could move, Xi Yu had already come close to him, kissed the corner of his lips, and then let go, still maintaining a very close distance.

It was so close that Xi Yu could feel Su Ye’s slightly hot nose, see Su Ye’s eyelashes trembling because of shyness, and hear Su Ye’s uncontrollable ethereal voice.

It contains infinite passionate emotions and lasting love.

“Then please stay with me forever.”

“Shui Shui.”
Xi Yu suddenly called Su Ye from a very close distance.

Su Ye rubbed the tip of his nose against Xi Yu’s, closed his eyes, and his drooping eyelashes almost brushed against Xi Yu’s eyebrows, “Hmm?”

Xi Yu’s peach blossom eyes curled up slightly because of her smile, “I love you.”

Su Ye closed her eyes and kissed Xi Yu. She smiled when she heard his words and heard Xi Yu ask a question in a low voice.
“Shuishui, can you tell whether it’s hallucination or reality now?”

The two people almost hugged each other.
Su Ye whispered, nuzzling Xi Yu, his smile becoming more and more gentle, “I can tell the difference.”

“why?”
“Because I love you, too.”

On the shore, the seabirds that had sailed across the ocean returned, flapping their wings in the leisurely white snow.

As long as Xi Yu lowered his head, he could see Su Ye’s eyes.

The breath is hot and I can’t forget it.
You are in the world, and I am by your side.
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