Human beings always love beauty, and I am no exception.
Ever since someone poured sulfuric acid on my arm and left me with that ugly scar, I have been reluctant to wear short sleeves. Even in the hot summer, I still wrap my upper body tightly with a coat.

Sometimes I also think that if I could have been a little more ruthless at the time and ignored Bai Yanlang’s situation, perhaps I would not have suffered this unexpected disaster.

But I can’t do it. I’ll just assume that I’m just being too chaste. I can’t ignore the suffering of others, and Bai Yanlang has indeed surpassed my imagination of human nature.

If she had been a stranger, I wouldn’t have been so sad.
I don’t regret saving her, the only thing I regret is knowing her.

After the final exams, my parents received a notice from the company that they had joined the team of engineers to aid Africa and would be leaving soon. I had just experienced this, and they were worried that I would not be safe and could not take care of myself in Qinglin City alone, so they sent me to my grandmother’s house in Nanzhou City.

I was in a very low mood at that time. During the two-month summer vacation, except for one time when I went out with my aunt to Nanzhou No. 1 Middle School to discuss the transfer, I locked myself in the house and didn’t want to see anyone.

The night before Nanzhou No. 1 Middle School officially opened, it was windy and rainy. I didn’t fall asleep until the early morning. After falling asleep, I had a nightmare. I dreamed that my whole body was festering and unrecognizable. I woke up suddenly.

But when I walked out of the house, I found the sunlight was soft, and the flower beds that were bare when I came were now full of flowers.
Suddenly, a picture emerged in front of my eyes: the seeds that were about to mold in the warehouse without seeing the sun were suddenly moved into the sunlight, and they immediately tried to take root and sprout.
As we walked past the wall, the birds chirped above, as if to say that good things were about to happen.

For some reason, the gloom in my heart suddenly dissipated.

My grandmother asked me to go find Director Jiang Qi first, so I followed the old path that my aunt took me on during the summer vacation. When I reached the Jasmine Path, I was attracted by a headdress shining brightly not far away.

It was a silver swallowtail butterfly-shaped hairpin that moved up and down as its owner walked, just like a real butterfly fluttering its wings, so lifelike.

I was immediately so excited that I couldn’t express it in words, because many years ago, a little girl had given me the exact same hairpin.

I called the owner of the hairpin and tricked her.
I said I didn’t know the way to the Academic Affairs Office and asked her to take me there.
Without giving it much thought, she kindly agreed to my request.

On the way, I observed that she always kept her eyebrows down, the corners of her mouth turned down, and she spoke and walked very carefully. She seemed different from the cheerful and unrestrained little sun in my impression.

But she shouldn’t be like this.

I secretly put a candy in my hand, and took the opportunity of shaking hands with her when introducing myself to secretly put the candy into her palm.
Candy is sweet, and I hope she can still smile sweetly, just like she did back then.

Director Jiang Qi assigned me to Class 5. I did not object because she said, “Class 5, Grade , He Xi.”

I transferred to Class 5 of Grade and became He Xi’s deskmate.
After only half a day of getting along, I noticed that she was different.

I am very confused: Why does a person’s personality become completely different from when he was a child?

Until I saw her surrounded by a group of girls, who were aggressive and not good people. I wanted to help her, but she didn’t seem to want me to get involved and followed them stubbornly.

I don’t know what she went through on the rooftop that day.
The next day, I saw her again in the classroom. She looked normal and even picked up a strand of hair that had fallen for me. I felt relieved.

The school uniform of Nanzhou No. 1 Middle School is different from that of Qinglin No. 1 Middle School. It is hard and inelastic, and not suitable for strenuous exercise. Therefore, we need to bring our own sportswear for physical education classes. The head teacher specifically reminded me of this in the first class meeting at the beginning of school, and I remember it very clearly.

Wen Wan’s foot injury made it inconvenient for her to attend the physical education class, so I took my sportswear to the locker room alone to change. I happened to see Ning Xiaoduo and the others coming out of the locker room in a triumphant manner. I thought to myself that something was wrong, and when I walked into the locker room, I saw He Xi, who was in a daze.

Although I already had a rough idea of ​​what had happened, I still wanted to maintain some dignity for her, so I didn’t expose everything. Instead, I lent her my sportswear. Fearing that she would not accept it, I lied to her and said that I could just wear something modest.

But Wen Wan had a broken right leg, so she didn’t have to attend physical education classes or even do morning exercises during breaks. So why bother bringing her sportswear to school?

Not surprisingly, I was punished to do a circle of frog jumps. The sun was scorching, and after one circle of frog jumps, my hair was wet. But I inexplicably breathed a sigh of relief, fortunately it was not her who was punished.

But He Xi seemed to feel very guilty about me taking the punishment for her. She kept apologizing and her expression was as depressed as a rainy autumn day.

I didn’t want to see her sad, so I took out a candy from my pocket and handed it to her like I was coaxing a child, and then lied to her that she had dimples.

Although this method was childish, it seemed to be effective and she really laughed.
Well, she looks so beautiful when she smiles. I wish she could smile forever.

No matter what she has been through over the years, I always believe that everything will be fine.

But the opposite happened. Not only did her life not change, but my life also started to get worse.

The caterpillar in the pencil case, the torn Chinese textbook, the ink stains on the school uniform… I knew that I was in trouble, and all of this was done on purpose by someone.

But I am not afraid of them, let the storm come even harder!
I am the bravest knight in the kingdom, and I am determined to fight against the forces of evil.

That afternoon, it was our group’s turn to clean the room, but He Xi was nowhere to be seen. I immediately ran to the rooftop and saw a group of girls beating and kicking her. I was furious and stopped them immediately.

Just like she protected me, I also protected her.

But she was so miserable. I couldn’t even count the wounds on her body. My eyes were blurry. My math grades were so good, but why couldn’t I count them?
She endured it silently without saying a word while I disinfected her wound.
I would rather she wasn’t so strong. She could just lie on me and cry to release her emotions. It would be very uncomfortable to hold it in like this.

Later, I found out that Ning Xiaoduo was Li Bufan’s cousin, so I revealed Ning Xiaoduo’s behavior to Li Bufan, hoping that she could restrain her, and she readily agreed.

I thought I had finally defeated the evil dragon, but unexpectedly, I was defeated by a letter of breaking off friendship from He Xi.

Before I opened the letter, I thought it was a love letter, so I was so excited and at a loss. But when I opened it and saw the words “From now on, we have nothing to do with each other, I just hope we can meet but not know each other”, I burst into tears.

I really want to ask her why.
But she always avoided me and seemed not to want to have any contact with me.

At that moment I realized that I didn’t defeat the dragon and I also lost my princess.

After the grade commendation meeting, I saw He Xi downstairs in the Zhixing Building. She was pushed by Ning Xiaoduo and almost slapped.
Even though Wen Wan kept pulling me back and told me not to interfere, I still walked resolutely to He Xi’s side.

I comforted He Xi and told her not to be afraid, and wanted to take her to seek help from Director Jiang, but she forcefully shook my hand off, saying that I was meddling in her business and that I just wanted to use her as a foil.

I was shocked, panicked, and incredulous. Did she always think that I was being nice to her and becoming friends with her just to make her my foil? Did she really hate me that much?

I did as she wished and never bothered her again.

However, on Singles’ Day, the whole class was immersed in the festive atmosphere and almost every student got a lollipop, but He Xi had nothing in his hands.

She will be disappointed, right? I thought.
Then, while she went to the bathroom, I secretly put a grape-flavored lollipop in her schoolbag.
If you can’t sweeten your heart, at least bring a little sweetness to her taste buds.

The knight did not continue to look for the princess, but he still challenged the dragon. Li Bufan invited me to her home, and I agreed.

Ning Xiaoduo’s parents were also at the dinner table, so I told them everything Ning Xiaoduo had done in school and pretended to be very worried about her, fearing that she would not even be able to get into university if she continued like this.

The couple started arguing, and finally, they unanimously decided to immigrate to Europe so that Ning Xiaoduo could receive an education that was more suitable for her.

The knight did not defeat the dragon, but he drove it away.

Not long after, Ning Xiaoduo went abroad with her parents.

I thought a new life was about to begin, but unexpectedly rumors followed.

Just because I went to Li Bufan’s house for a meal, rumors spread around the school that I was dating her and had even met her parents.

I looked at the picture on Pan Ran’s post. It was a surveillance picture from the living room of Li Bufan’s villa. The picture perfectly stayed on the scene where Li Bufan took the initiative to pick up food for me.
Without Li Bufan’s permission, how could Pan Ran get the surveillance footage of her home?

I looked at He Xi quietly. It didn’t matter if other people misunderstood me. What mattered most was what she thought.

Her expression was very ugly, and I didn’t know whether she believed it or not.

So, that afternoon, I took the initiative to refute the rumor on the radio, left the radio station, and severed my only contact with Li Bufan.

After Ning Xiaoduo went abroad, I clearly felt the changes in He Xi. It was as if a mountain pressing on her collapsed. She felt relieved and her body and mind became happy.

Seeing her change, I am also happy from the bottom of my heart. The typhoon shelter opposite the school has been renovated and a new wall has been added. You can write good wishes on sticky notes and stick them on to pray.

Wen Wan invited me for a long time before I was willing to go. Seeing the wishes all over the wall, I felt itchy and quietly wrote a sentence “May He Xi be safe and happy”, and under Wen Wan’s gaze, I posted it on the wall.

Wen Wan and I sat by the window with milk tea in our arms. Looking at the Chinese knot on the window, I couldn’t help but ask, “Wan Wan, do you think she will really come to me and make peace?”

Wen Wan said, “Yes, since Ding Xianting said that He Xi was threatened by Ning Xiaoduo, now that the threat is gone, she will definitely find you to make peace.”

I took a sip of milk tea and felt sweet in my heart.

But I waited for a long time, and He Xi didn’t come to reconcile with me.
She was just like before, pretending not to know me when she saw me.

I think she must be very conflicted inside, but I am still very sad.

A long time passed like this.

The second day of the 100-day countdown to the college entrance examination was the school’s 80th anniversary celebration party. I had a solo program, and I deliberately wore an off-shoulder dress to show the scars on my arms completely and unreservedly. I just wanted to prove to her that I didn’t care about the pain in the past, and she didn’t have to feel psychological pressure because of the hurtful words she said to me.

Just like what she said to me back then, “It’s pitch black inside the cocoon and you can’t see anything.” You are trapped in your own cocoon, and only by breaking out of it can you emerge as a butterfly.

So, I can wait until the day when she is willing to come to me and reconcile.

After the performance, I slowly walked off the stage holding up my skirt, subconsciously looking towards her position, and suddenly found that she was holding up her cell phone to take a picture of me.

I just knew that everything would be alright.

I cooperated and stood at a distance, staring at the camera motionlessly, with my eyes fixed on it, smiling, my features clear and bright.

Even though she was willing to keep me in her photo album, she still didn’t come to me to reconcile.

I made excuses for her.
It must be because the college entrance examination is approaching and she is afraid of affecting my studies, so she doesn’t come to see me.

Ugh.
When will she come to see me?
I really don’t want to wait any longer.

That night after the college entrance examination, I couldn’t help but speak first. I said to her, “Although you didn’t apologize to me, I forgive you. He Xi, let’s make peace.”

She shook my hand and acquiesced to my request.
I handed her the paper crane I folded for her and said, “See you some other day.”

On the letter paper I folded the thousand paper cranes, I wrote a confession: “He Xi, I like you. If you like me too, please come to the Early Summer Bar before 6:10 on June 19th, and I will know your answer.”

I didn’t want to embarrass her by confessing my feelings publicly. If she liked me too, then under the dim lights of the bar, we would look at each other tacitly and express our love to each other.

If she doesn’t like me…
I didn’t think about the result. I thought she would probably like me.

But on June 6th, I waited at the Early Summer Bar until 10 p.m., but she was nowhere to be seen.

She didn’t come.
She didn’t come.

When I knew her answer, I felt a chill in my heart and even my blood froze.

Wenwan glanced at me and went to a quiet place to make a phone call.

At this time, Qin Yin ordered a song for me, “My Deskmate”, and invited me to sing it. Wen Wan called back and urged me to sing it to cheer me up, and even took out a DV, saying that she wanted to record it well.

I couldn’t refuse the invitation, so I took the microphone and walked up.

I was staring at the lyrics display screen. When I sang the line “Who made the wedding dress for you”, I heard a noise beside me. I turned around and saw a dagger stabbed into my chest.

I stared into the murderer’s eyes and felt that he was very familiar, as if I had seen him somewhere before.

But I no longer have the energy to think.

it hurts.

It’s so dangerous here, luckily she didn’t come.

(End of this chapter)