Late in spring, Luo Yang and Sang Huaiyu agreed to go to the temple together.

In the third year after their marriage, nothing seemed to have changed. Ye Gu still often played pranks on her like a child. He was always worried that she would hide her thoughts and not tell him, so he always found different ways to make her happy.

It’s rare that Ye Gu has a lot of meetings to attend in the company today, so Luo Yang accepted Sang Huaiyu’s invitation.

Qingyu Mountain is a summer resort. It is spring now and the temperature on the mountain is even chilly. Luo Yang wanted to reach for the coat in his bag, and Sang Huaiyu handed him one.
Luo Yang was stunned for a moment, then slowly took it over: “Are you so well prepared? In the past, you preferred cool and light clothes in spring and summer.”

Come to think of it, in the past winters when Luo Yang saw Sang Huaiyu, she was mostly wearing skirts. Before coming, he didn’t notice that she was wearing linen clothes and even flat shoes today.

Sang Huaiyu smiled but said nothing. At this stage, Luo Yang was sensitive.
She probed, “Is there something wrong with you?”

Sang Huaiyu is not the kind of person who can hide things, especially secrets. She smiled and took Luo Yang’s hand and gently placed it on her flat belly.

Luo Yang suddenly had an epiphany, his eyes narrowed slightly, and he looked at Sang Huaiyu in disbelief.
“A baby?!”

Sang Huaiyu did not deny it, but just made a hissing sound, “It’s just been three months, and it’s stable, but it’s still too early to show my pregnancy. The doctor said that my physical condition is not very good, and I have to be extra careful, so I sneaked out today without telling Mo Chen, you have to keep it a secret for me.”

Luo Yang frowned and held her arm.
“In that case, you should be more careful. In fact, we can wait until your pregnancy is over before coming back. No, no, I still have to send you back–“

Sang Huaiyu grabbed Luo Yang’s arm and said, “Please don’t. I have wanted to come here for a long time. Finally, I have an opportunity with the right time, place and people. I promise that I will be very careful, okay?”

Ever since Luo Yang met Sang Huaiyu, he has been unable to resist any of Sang Huaiyu’s requests, and this time is no exception.

On Qingyu Mountain, there is a temple with strong incense, but it seems to be sparsely populated.
Luo Yang stood in front of the temple gate, looking up for a long time.

Once upon a time, she was extremely proud. She did not believe in Buddhism or fate, and felt that she could turn the tide of everything.
Later, when Yang Yue left, she began to waver. From that time on, she truly felt the insignificance and powerlessness of human destiny. No matter how famous a person was during his lifetime, he could be taken away without any discussion just by an illness, and the reputation he left behind would be nothing but empty. In the end, there would be only a handful of people sending flowers to his grave.

It was probably from that time that she began to have an indescribable awe for life, and it was also probably from that time that she began to think twice before making any decision.

Sang Huaiyu turned around and called her, and Luo Yang came to her senses and followed him step by step.

After crossing the threshold, the quiet and peaceful atmosphere inside was unexpectedly soothing and calming. Occasionally, a little monk passing by would greet them with his palms together.

That kind of quiet feeling can really calm Luo Yang’s mind.
Sang Huaiyu seemed very familiar with the place, bowing at each place and walking peacefully every step of the way.

Feeling Luo Yang’s gaze, Sang Huaiyu curled his lips slightly, “My mother believed in Buddhism when she was alive. I was influenced by her and I believe in it a little bit too.”

Luo Yang knew that Sang Huaiyu’s mother died young, but it was the first time she mentioned it so openly, which surprised her a little.

Luo Yang did not walk all the way, and waited for Sang Huaiyu on the temple platform halfway.
The scenery of Qingyu Mountain is in full view from this direction, with green waterfalls extending all the way to the foot of the mountain, so dense that it even obscures human figures.

“Amitabha, donor.”

Luo Yang was pulled out of her thoughts by the old abbot who appeared beside her, and she responded in the same way.

“Does the female donor have any worries?” The old abbot had a kind look on his face, and he was twirling 108 prayer beads in his hand, looking straight ahead.

After a long while, Luo Yang’s thin lips moved: “Bad memories always need to be forgotten, right?”

The old abbot turned around and looked into Luo Yang’s eyes, then slowly retracted his gaze, smiled and closed his eyes.
“It depends on the donor’s heart whether she can forget or not.”

“But if I try desperately to forget but just can’t, how can I save myself?”

The old abbot laughed deeply, “Be willing to let go, let go, and forget. If you can’t do it, then there is no need to force it. Anything that makes you feel painful is against self-salvation, isn’t it?”

“If you can’t forget, then don’t forget. If you keep remembering, it will fade away!”
The old abbot slowly walked down the mountain, leaving Luo Yang alone with his words echoing in his ears.

/ / /
“I’m going to go check on him, is that okay with you?”

The chopsticks in Ye Gu’s hand paused, but he quickly recovered, picked up a piece of fish, removed the fish bones, and put it in Luo Yang’s bowl.
“I’ll go with you.”

Luo Yang knew that he understood what she meant, but she was still confused, “Do you think that I am not good to Ms. Yang?”

Ye Gu slowly put down his chopsticks and took her hand.
“If Ms. Yang were still alive, she would definitely tell you, ‘Just do what you want to do, don’t let anyone bother you.’ Ah He, he has already paid the price for this matter. Although what has happened cannot be undone, he is also living in pain, isn’t he?”

“I think that before this incident, their feelings were genuine. Ms. Yang told you before she left that she never blamed your father, because in their love, they were sincere to each other and never let anyone down.”

“So Ah He, don’t feel any psychological burden. I will go with you.”

Luo Jiancheng has been in prison for some years, and Luo Yang has never visited him during this time. She always secretly thought that this was Ms. Yang’s punishment for him. However, after going to the temple that day, she began to reflect on whether she had done something wrong.

The more she forced herself to forget Luo Jiancheng’s existence, the more pain and resentment she felt. But even so, the fact was that no matter how she inflicted her resentment on him, everything could not go back to the way it was before and it was of no use.

In the freezing cold waiting room, Luo Yang had a clear view of everything through the glass window. The door opposite the glass window slowly opened, and the police officer brought in a white-haired man, who looked decadent but could not hide the romantic charm he once had.

The moment the man saw Luo Yang, a huge tsunami rose in his eyes. He dared not move forward and was pulled by the police officer, staggering to his seat.

She hadn’t seen this person in her life for several years.
Wherever the eyes pass, the mottled traces of evil are hidden in every wrinkle that grows.

Luo Yang held the phone and said the first sentence.
“I’m here to see you.”

I finally came.

Luo Jiancheng’s eyes have turned yellow due to his age, which is exactly what the saying “old and yellowed” means. The hand holding the phone kept shaking, and he could only stop the shaking by holding it with his other hand. Luo Jiancheng sketched Luo Yang’s face through the glass in his mind. It was really magical. The small and wrinkled face when he was born has now become graceful.

I once thought that she would come to see me, but now she can’t say a word.

“I… I still,” Luo Jiancheng rubbed the tabletop with his right hand nervously, the threads on his finger joints were obviously rough, “Can I still call you Ah He…”

The nickname Ahe was given by Luo Jiancheng.
He hoped that his little princess would have a smooth life and shine in the vast era.

However, all the misfortunes and pains of his little princess ultimately came from him. He was the one who destroyed all her trust with his own hands. From the first wrong step he took, today’s situation was foreshadowed.

Luo Yang tightened his grip on the phone, his eyes deep, his voice soft: “I have never denied the nickname you gave me. You have the right to call me that.”

Luo Jiancheng nodded, and the police officer behind him reminded him of the visiting time. He nervously changed his hand to hold the phone, looking anxious, trying to find all the topics he could talk to her about, but in the end it was in vain. Luo Yang looked at him, and for a moment she seemed to see Luo Jiancheng’s reluctance and unwillingness when she had to stay at someone else’s house when she was a child.

She suppressed her restlessness and spoke word by word: “I am living a good life now. I am still running my own clinic. No one has ever treated me harshly. I will always visit Ms. Yang. You don’t have to worry about me. And-“

“Maybe I’ll come to see you again in the future.”

Luo Jiancheng was stunned, the emotions in his eyes could no longer be concealed, and tears that had long since dried up overflowed from his cloudy pupils.
He stretched out his hand to touch the glass window, as if he could feel Luo Yang’s warmth in this way.

But he was just a few inches away when the police officer came forward to take him away.

The person in front of him gradually moved away, his voice was hoarse and low, and he felt a mixture of various emotions.
“Ah He, I’m sorry. Dad is sorry for you. I’m sorry…”

Luo Yang looked at him until he disappeared through the door. She seemed exhausted and slumped in her seat, unable to recover for a long time.

This sorry came too late. She couldn’t forgive his actions on her own initiative for those who were hurt in this incident.
But the person who was hurt the most has long passed away.

When she went out, Ye Gu was waiting at the door. When Luo Yang saw the first beam of light, she felt it was extremely dazzling, more dazzling than she had ever felt before. She stretched out her hand to block it, but as the world spun around her, she could only hear Ye Gu’s surprised voice.

There was also the sound of footsteps coming in a cluster, making a chaotic mess.

She was a little tired, so she took a rest.

/ / /
“Ah He, you have to take good care of yourself and don’t let the people around you worry.”

In her familiar home, she saw Yang Yue standing at the stairs. She ran up excitedly, but caught nothing. The image disappeared in an instant.

“Mom? Mom, don’t hide. I clearly saw you. You can’t play tricks on me.” Luo Yang panted and searched everywhere in the house, rummaging through drawers and cabinets, leaving no corner untouched, but everything was in vain.

She slumped on the ground, looking at the now empty Luo family home. A draught whistled through her heart, mercilessly leaving nothing behind, not even a leaf.

Everything in front of her was receding and disappearing, as if she had never lived here, and even Yang Yue’s face became blurred. Luo Yang shook her head, trying desperately to find those fragments of Yang Yue’s existence, those scenes and photos in her memory, but every photo coincidentally had missing corners or pages, as if God was deliberately playing this not-at-all-funny joke on her.

The tears flowing freely blurred her vision. She couldn’t find the direction or anyone. It was as if she had returned to the helpless state she was in a few years ago overnight.

Suddenly, a familiar voice sounded, ethereal and distant: “Ah He, you should have new expectations and new sustenance. He will be your reliance. Ah He, move forward.”

After she finished speaking, the dream suddenly disappeared, and sparse and sporadic sounds gradually appeared in her ears, hitting her eardrums bit by bit. The sound came from afar, pure and clear.

“Ahe? Ahe? Can you hear me? Look at me?”

With her eyelids tightly closed and struggling, Luo Yang followed the direction of the sound and walked hard. In front of her where light suddenly appeared, she vaguely saw a face with a slightly frown on its face. The blinking of the eyes was accompanied by the guidance of the light, an attraction like fate.

“You’re awake now. I won’t allow you to go out alone like this next time.” Ye Gu is still afraid and feels more guilty. “Are you feeling unwell?”

Xi Jinzhou was watching Ye Gu from the side, it was a rare sight.
“You didn’t see it. The young master almost pulled his hair off.”

Ye Gu glared at him, “If you don’t speak, no one will think you are dumb.”
Xi Jinzhou shrugged, turned around and went out to call a doctor.

Luo Yang looked at Ye Gu, who was clasping his hands tightly in front of him, and laughed loudly, but his lips were pale and his complexion was a little weak.

Ye Gu kept muttering to himself, “From now on, I will personally see you off whenever you go out. No, I have to accompany you. From now on, no one who dares to do anything unkind is allowed to get close to you. Oh, yes, I will ask Liu Min to have someone follow you starting tomorrow…”

“Ye Gu, look at me.” Luo Yang’s breath was still weak, but just one word made Ye Gu silent, and he looked at her intently.

The dream just now seemed like a real experience. Luo Yanghui held Ye Gu’s palm, and the rings on the nameless places intersected and touched.

“I dreamed of Ms. Yang, and she said, I have to move forward.”

“So,” Luo Yang placed his hand on her chest, “I will walk towards you in the future. I have a poor sense of direction and I will only walk to the end of a road. You have to walk slower and wait for me. I will try my best to walk side by side with you.”

Ye Gu was moved and touched, and kissed her ring finger with great care.
“From now on, the three of us will go together, and I will never let go of your hand again.”

“three people?”

Ye Gu put his hand on her belly and smiled gently: “A little angel has taken a fancy to us.”

(End of this chapter)