Chapter 451 Inner Demon
morning.

Li Ke felt satisfied with the Lord God.

At this moment, in his hand he was still holding YoRHa’s calf, which was wearing black stockings. The postures of the two were also very strange. However, because when he created YoRHa, he asked the Lord God to give YoRHa full free physical fitness, so even if the posture was a little strange, she would not feel uncomfortable.

And it must be said that when the Lord God said that the other party was completely loyal to him, that was really true. Li Ke felt that even if he let Yoye die, she would be willing and happy about it.

“This kind of life is very sad, but it really fits the meaning of ‘YorYoHa’. It is just a leaf living on a big tree…”

Li Ke loosened his hand, feeling YoYe serving him wholeheartedly. Being in sage mode, he couldn’t help but start thinking.

“Does the memory of mechanical life come from the data in the brain, or does it come from the so-called soul? But even if there is a soul, its essence must be material, so what is the self?”

He fell into emptiness, weakness and confusion, until Yoriha pulled up his pants and kissed him on the ear, he recovered a little from this state.

However, he still couldn’t feel the reality, because after venting and being excited, he actually realized one thing.

He couldn’t find a reason to be so passionate in this world.

The world does not need his salvation, so Li Ke and others cannot show their desire to save the world. Although he can save other people, he does not feel any passion, and many people are hopeless.

“It seems that all that’s left is fighting? And what can I do in the future?”

He subconsciously lit a cigarette. He was the only one among all the Li Kes who still had the bad habit of smoking. But at this moment, Li Ke heard a knock on the door.

He immediately put on his clothes and walked out with Yoriha, then he saw a guide named Zhang Jie appear in front of him. He was stunned for a moment, then nodded to Zhang Jie.

“Good morning, Jack, what’s up?”

His call of “Brother Jie” did not make Zhang Jie smile mysteriously, but his state made Zhang Jie a little confused.

“Well, mainly I asked you to go to dinner, and also about strengthening matters.”

Zhang Jie gave a shy smile, but seeing that Li Ke looked completely different from before, he couldn’t help but asked curiously.

“Speaking of which, brother Li Ke, what’s going on with you?”

He felt that Li Ke was unusually empty and lost. This was completely different from the Li Ke before! That kind of excitement, that kind of unstoppable enthusiasm, even he couldn’t help being excited, why is it that now it’s like cold carbon ash, as if there is nothing left?

“Well, I’m thinking about the meaning of human existence, the meaning of the universe, and what exactly is the real me. For example, how can a robot be considered a human being? Is a human being made up of the original material or the memories he has? And can a robot that copies his memories be considered a human being?”

Li Ke asked a very classic philosophical question, and Zhang Jie was shocked and immediately thought of his own situation.

His smile suddenly became awkward, and the corners of his mouth twitched a few times, but he couldn’t smile as brightly as before. He couldn’t pretend any longer, and could only speak reluctantly.

“Yes, brother Li Ke, the questions you think about are really wonderful…”

Before he could say anything else, Li Ke spoke again.

“Moreover, is it more meaningful for people to live or die? What is the value of human beings? Can human morality determine all the rules of the world? And is what people want and hope for self-comfort or genetic instinct? If it is genetic instinct, then do humans still have a true self? Is human self-will part of the natural cycle? Do humans really have so-called self-awareness?”

Zhang Jie: “…………”

He now wanted to slap himself twice for asking such a stupid question.

As a life created by the main god and born from the fusion of a reincarnation named Zhang Jie, facing these questions from Li Ke at this moment, Zhang Jie only felt a twitching and pain in his stomach.

Moreover, as a user of telekinesis, his ability to understand has naturally increased a lot along with his mental abilities. So naturally, before he realized what he heard, he had already understood Li Ke’s question and began to think about it subconsciously.

Because of this, he felt that he was not feeling well at all.

“So, I’m thinking about what it means to be a human being and what is true free will.”

Li Ke, who was leaning on by Yoye, made his own summary.

And Zhang Jie finally couldn’t help it.

“Well, I won’t bother you to think about this topic. Just remember to come out for dinner later.”

He closed Li Ke’s door with a forced smile, then walked towards his own room. However, the moment he entered, he could not help but sit down at the door of his room, holding a cigarette and crying.

His name is Zhang Jie, but he knows he is not Zhang Jie.

He has all the memories, all the knowledge, and even the feelings towards his parents and relatives of a person named Zhang Jie, but he is definitely not Zhang Jie.

The real Zhang Jie had long died at Freddy’s hands, leaving only him, the mutated guide, a person who was not a human, a person who could be said to be a robot.

It’s just that his body is made up of flesh and blood instead of machines.

After all, humans are just flesh and blood machines controlled by the collection of codes called genes. It is reasonable for the Lord God to modify it a little and let this machine move forward according to his will.

And he is just a robot created by the Lord God, who needs to sacrifice for the happiness of others.

“Why does it have to be me? Why? Why do I have memories and emotions? Why?”

Zhang Jie held his head. At this moment, the strong man who was able to kill through the entire main god space was extremely fragile and confused. However, the memory of ‘Zhang Jie’ and Zhang Jie’s character in his mind were constantly affecting him, ‘Zhang Jie’, telling him what he should do.

Since he no longer has the possibility of survival, the best way to live is to make others remember him as much as possible.

But these are just Zhang Jie’s things.

However, the only thing missing was Zhang Jie’s. He——

Doesn’t even exist.

“But I don’t want to die! I don’t want to die!”

He twisted his body, and the woman named Na’er came over gently and held the man who was trapped in the pain of the Infernal Affairs in her arms. She could do nothing, the only thing she could do was to warm the man with her arms and face it with him.

And at the same time——

“Am I a shameless woman?”

Zhan Lan hugged her legs and sat on her bed. Her room was exactly the same as the room in her own world. Even the photo of her ex-boyfriend on the bedside table was the same.

Her ex-boyfriend died while fighting a fire, and she was deeply traumatized and has been depressed ever since. But now she finds that she fell in love with another man because of a momentary impulse.

What she thought of herself as her loyalty until death was a complete joke. She also became a completely different person in front of the smile in times of crisis and the confident and powerful back.

And when he came to his senses, he even created a person according to the other party’s aesthetic taste to seduce the other party, causing an innocent person to fall into this dangerous world with himself!
“I am such a shameless and vicious woman.”

Holding her knees, Zhan Lan continued to shed tears.

She tried hard to recall the warm feeling and the feeling of being in love between her and her ex-boyfriend, but all she could think of was the pain and the sadness after he left. She could no longer feel any warmth.

She didn’t want to admit it, didn’t want to admit that she was such a unemotional woman who could even fall in love with someone else for temporary benefits, but the facts were in front of her.

She is.

She is not the loyal princess in his imagination!
She is such a woman. Even Zheng Zha, who seems to be mentally ill, wants to revive his former love, but she subconsciously chooses a strong man to join, and obeys the choice of her own genes. In this case, she is really…

Do you really deserve happiness?

Are you worthy of being called a human being?
Zhan Lan burst into tears. She couldn’t accept herself like this, she couldn’t accept her real self. She didn’t understand why she had become like this, nor did she understand why her real self was like this and why she felt so uncomfortable.

She didn’t understand, but what she didn’t know was that in Zheng Zha’s room, Zheng Zha was also experiencing inner torture.

“Am I really worthy of returning to Luo Li?”

Sitting in the corner of the room, Zheng Zha smoked a cigarette, looking at the curling smoke, feeling extremely lost in his heart.

He has done so many wrong things, too many, and violated so many promises, so many that when he thinks of them now, he can’t help but slap himself.

Moreover, many things cannot be undone. One’s own values, world view, and life view have all changed.

Can he really become the “Zheng Zha” in Luo Li’s heart? When he was struggling in this steel city, did he really consider what Luo Li thought?

and–

Is Luo Li’s imaginary self the same as her own fantasy?
“What should I do? I’m just an ordinary person, just an ordinary person, just a coward…”

Grabbing his hair, Zheng Zha wanted very much to do what he wanted, but because of what he wanted, he felt ashamed of his abilities and was afraid of what he wanted.

He hammered the wall angrily, terrified that he couldn’t do it, and even more terrified that after he did all this, Luo Li would hate him!

Moreover, is the idea of ​​saving Luo Li based on his own feelings or the desires that he dare not express? And are Luo Li’s feelings for him really as he thinks?
Also, am I really as loyal and loving as I think I am?

The moment this question appeared in Zheng Zha’s mind, he laughed, but as he laughed, tears kept flowing down.

Because he knew the answer, and the answer made him feel pain and disappointment about his own existence and his own nature.

“What should I do?”

He thought of Li Ke, the man who had always been very confident. He bit his lip and took a deep breath.

“Live, I want to live!”

No matter what Luo Li’s attitude is or what she hopes for, he has to live on. Only by living on, as long as he keeps going, the road will continue to extend! Only by living on, can he know the answer and get a new future based on the answer!

The self in Luo Li’s mind is not how she will grow up in the future, so she just needs to change again. If Luo Li cares about her past, then…

“So be it.”

Zheng Zha took a long puff of his cigarette.

“No matter whether Luo Li will continue to love me or not, or whether her love for me is just the nonsense of a child, I must do what I promised. I once promised to be her hero, so I must do it!”

This is a man’s promise!
So, Zheng Zha walked out, and then saw Li Ke standing under the Lord God, constantly looking at the Lord God’s enhancement.

What surprised him was that Li Ke still looked full of enthusiasm, as if he was not affected at all by yesterday’s killing. This made him nod his head involuntarily, and he felt that if he fought with Li Ke, he would definitely be able to go on!

“Hey, Li Ke, are you watching Enhancement?”

He had also looked at this enhancement yesterday, but it had not been enhanced yet. He wanted to hear Zhang Jie’s advice, but since Li Ke showed up, he would just listen to Li Ke’s opinion.

“Well, I have my eye on a bloodline.”

Li Ke nodded, and then mentioned a bloodline that he valued.

“The Spartan demon bloodline has super strong recovery ability, powerful magic and long lifespan. It also has the ability to enchant weapons and transform other monsters into weapons. The physical strength is also very high. It is a very good enhancement for me. And I just checked that there is a martial art called magnetic field rotation in the main god space, and I happen to know how to do it, but I didn’t believe it existed before. I can teach you later.”

He actually doesn’t care about any bloodline, because he has heard of a saying that the original infinite bloodline is actually modified by the main god himself, so most of the time it is impossible to exert the original ability.

Therefore, bloodline is just something for him to enhance his physical strength. As for moves, although he likes to cultivate immortality, he also likes magic. In addition, his combat modes are more diverse, so he thinks that it is the same for him to follow the path of magic.

after all……

No one likes going to work.

Working in heaven is certainly good, but being free also means more freedom and a broader horizon.

(End of this chapter)