Chapter 392 Where Did My Sanity Go?

“what!”

The shrill screams rang out again, first from the little Taoist children who were playing on the hillside. They suddenly saw the residual soul of Wang Xuan at the foot of the mountain. They were so scared that they cried for their parents and wet their pants.

Then, just like what Zhao Guanshan had experienced in his previous fantasy, fear spread wildly on the hill like a contagious plague.

After suffering from fear, the villagers died and turned into restless ghosts.

And those cultivators degenerated into monsters.

This is a standard sign of the arrival of a fallen immortal and widespread pollution.

Soon after, Zhao Guanshan also sensed again that Liyue’s fourth reincarnation was about to begin. In the illusion, it was at this time that he had to choose to take action. He covered himself with strange skin with bio-machinery, patrolled the hills, and prepared for the arrival of the fourth reincarnation.

But now, Zhao Guanshan hesitated and felt lost. The previous illusion undoubtedly had a huge impact on him.

Almost broke through his defense.

It even made him feel unreal, as if he was still in a fantasy world.

This made it difficult for him to make a rational judgment.

“Yes, this must be the critical moment of the confrontation. Rational analysis is meaningless at this moment.”

“If you want to rely on reason to make a choice, it is likely to be inaccurate.”

Zhao Guanshan hid under the large shield of spiritual ash. He could vaguely see that all over his body, there were clusters of blood vessels condensed under his skin, constantly flowing and converging. Where the blood vessels gathered for a long time, black gas would rise. Something was not right with him.

“Then abandon reason.”

“It’s good to be a smart person, but it’s hard to be confused in life.”

“I can’t expect everything to be in my favor, so I’ll just leave all the choices to my own blind impulse.”

He muttered to himself, and a flash of light appeared in his hand. A strange light condensed at his fingertips. He pointed it at his forehead, and the memory of the previous illusion was forcibly sealed.

Everything depends on your heart, follow the footsteps of your heart.

Don’t care about the ending.

The effect of the memory seal will not last long, at most a dozen years, but it should be enough to get through this stage.

He has made his choice, but how the world and fate treat him has nothing to do with him.

After a few seconds, Zhao Guanshan’s eyes became bright again, and the strange condition on his body suddenly disappeared.

And he acted without hesitation, just like the choice he made in the illusion, and created a giant mechanical mushroom in order to go up the mountain in his fourth life.

Everything developed as before.

Then ten years later, just before the fourth life was about to climb the mountain, Wang Xuan’s residual soul was crushed and turned into a mysterious palm with an eye in the palm, which directly contaminated and corroded the Spirit Ash Shield.

In order to fight back and also to buy time for the fourth generation to climb the mountain, Zhao Guanshan decisively put everything at the risk. When his life fire was burned and consumed, and his 3000 years of life were about to end, a woman in green wearing a bamboo hat casually climbed the hill as if to enjoy the scenery. She looked around and was curious about everything here.

Then she saw Zhao Guanshan.

“Are you a monster?”

She asked curiously, seemingly completely oblivious to the strange hands and eyes.

“help me.”

Zhao Guanshan struggled to say these two words just like last time.

“what?”

But she didn’t hear clearly, and looked around in confusion, then said with a smile: “This hill doesn’t look impressive, but I feel like I’ve seen it before. You may be an old friend of mine. I’ll save your life.”

As she spoke, a flame of extreme purity suddenly ignited in her hand. It was wildfire, the same kind that had brought two soul armor pieces to Zhao Guanshan.

The flame jumped to the center of Zhao Guanshan’s eyebrows, and instantly, a warmth gently enveloped him, as if after trekking thousands of miles, his tired body could finally take a hot bath.

All the haze was swept away.

Even the palm and the eyes in the palm of the hand disappeared at some point.

If he had not really lost three thousand years of life, all the golden merit sands had been used up, and the Spirit Ash Shield had not been damaged to a certain extent, he would have really doubted whether this was a dream.

“Thank you girl for saving my life.”

Zhao Guanshan put away the ash shield and bowed to express his gratitude.

“Wow, so you are a human, such a strong spirit. I thought you were a monster, but what are you doing hiding in here?” The woman in green laughed, and then suddenly seemed to remember something, “So you are the owner of this mountain?”

“I’m not. I’m just hiding here, avoiding a disaster, and waiting for an old friend here.” Zhao Guanshan said, and suddenly coughed a few times. Only then did he realize that he was already gray-haired and looked very old.

“I see. It sounds a bit sad. I’d like to ask your name, sir?”

“Zhao Chengfeng.”

“Zhao Chengfeng? Sounds so familiar, old man. Maybe I am the old friend you are waiting for. Do you recognize me?” The woman in green suddenly took off her hat, revealing a beautiful face with a playful look, but she was a teenage girl who had not yet grown up.

Zhao Guanshan tried to look at her for a while, then searched his memory, and finally shook his head, “I don’t recognize you, but why do you speak so maturely when you are still young?”

“I don’t know either. Ever since I can remember, there have always been some unclear words lingering in my ears, and sometimes they appear in my dreams. So when I was sixteen, I sneaked down the mountain and followed that feeling to find this place. Although I still don’t know why this happened, there is one thing that is beyond doubt, this place makes me feel very close.” “Where did the girl come from?”

“I came from the Cangwu Immortal Sect. Have you heard of the Cangwu Immortal Sect? Or the Qingmu Dao League? You should at least know the Great Vehicle Immortal Yu Jin, right? That’s my master. I took my master’s surname, and my name is Yu Yue. She said that she found me in a city that was breached by evil spirits.”

“Wait, Zhao Chengfeng? I remember now, you are the big devil that my master is looking for, or maybe you two have the same name.”

“It’s not a coincidence. I am Zhao Chengfeng, the wanted villain.”

Zhao Guanshan said quietly, while Yu Yue was stunned for a moment, then burst into laughter, “Father-in-law, stop joking, how can you be so stupid as to reveal your real name right away? Anyway, I don’t believe you are a big devil. If you are an evil demon, you can’t withstand my Eight Desolate Spirit Fire.”

Zhao Guanshan also smiled and asked, “That flame just now is called the Eight Desolate Spiritual Fire?”

“Yes, I didn’t even let my master know the name I gave it. You are the second person in the world who knows this name.”

“why?”

“Because I got this Eight Desolate Spirit Fire by accident. It fell from the sky and was tamed by me. My master didn’t know about it, and I didn’t dare to tell her because I was afraid she would give it another name.”

“Is the name important?” Zhao Guanshan was very surprised. A familiar feeling flashed through his mind inexplicably, as if he had seen it before?
“Of course the name is important. For example, I don’t like the name Yu Yue, but I have no choice, so I have to name my Eight Desolate Spiritual Fire myself.”

At this point, Yu Yue’s face showed a trace of sadness, and she even sighed softly.

“Girl, are you worried?”

“Yes, because you are probably the only person in the world besides me who can safely come into contact with the Eight Desolate Spiritual Fire without getting hurt or dying. It’s a pity that you are so old. Alas, you were born before I was born, and I was born when you were old. It’s hard to find a soulmate.”

“Pfft! What kind of worry is this!” Zhao Guanshan was shocked by this sentence.

But Yu Yue was very serious, “You know what? I’m worried that everyone in the world is a demon, because no one can withstand the Eight Desolate Spirit Fire, not even my master. After they come into contact with the Eight Desolate Spirit Fire, they will reveal their true form as demons. Only you are a human, but you are old.”

“Wait, what are you thinking? Isn’t it that the power of your Eight Desolate Spirit Fire is too strong?” Zhao Guanshan’s heart moved, but he still said this.

“Maybe, so I sneaked down the mountain.”

“So what are your plans for the future?”

“I didn’t have one originally, but now I have one. I want to bring my master to see you. I want to tell her with facts that you are not a big devil.”

Zhao Guanshan blinked, feeling very tired and not wanting to talk anymore.

Why keep going through so much trouble? Isn’t the fourth reincarnation the end? Do we have to go through the fifth reincarnation?
I’ve become like this, I’m about to be drained dry by you. If you don’t awaken all my memories, I can’t be your guiding light anymore.

“What’s wrong with you? You look so ugly all of a sudden. Are you scared?” Yu Yue asked curiously.

“I’m not afraid of anything, I’m just a little tired.” Zhao Guanshan was a little irritable.

“why?”

“Maybe it’s because I have nothing left.”

“Having nothing, shouldn’t you be more fearless?”

“Because I have nothing, I’m afraid I can’t protect the people I want to protect.” Zhao Guanshan looked at Yu Yue meaningfully. He really wanted to tell her the truth, but he held back in the end. Hey, what’s wrong with me? Where is my sanity?

“Who are you trying to protect?” Yu Yue asked casually, but her eyes were looking straight into Zhao Guanshan’s eyes, as if she wanted to see into the deepest part of his heart.

Zhao Guanshan suddenly panicked for a moment. Where was his rationality?

He didn’t say anything, but Yu Yue pressed on, “Is this the old friend you’re waiting for here?”

Zhao Guanshan still didn’t say anything, but Yu Yue reached out her hand, gently stroked his weathered face, and continued to ask: “That old friend, is it me?”

“Yes and no.” Zhao Guanshan said hoarsely, “The future is very confusing. I can’t see any hope. I have tried my best. The next road is——”

A slender jade finger stopped him from speaking.

“I will protect you from now on.”

The jade fingers were slender and the breath was like orchid. Zhao Guanshan’s mind was excited and he said in surprise:
“Have you regained your memory?”

But the next second, Yu Yue suddenly smiled cunningly, “Sure enough, I tricked you out. Tell me, what do you know? Who am I? Why do I feel so close to this hill? Why do I have an inexplicable affection for you? You are obviously an old man! What is the relationship between us? Why are not only my master, but also several other major alliances offering a reward for you? Are they doing it for you or for this hill?”

Zhao Guanshan was stunned. After a long while, he couldn’t help but wail, “Fuck, it’s really not enough. It’s really debt collection. Fuck, when will this end!”

Yes, the fourth life seems perfect enough, but it is still not final.

And now he saw it clearly.

The type of karmic debt she brought with her in her first reincarnation was stupidity, the kind of stupidity that made her unable to adapt, the kind that made her be used by others without knowing it, the kind that made her be used like a gun by others.

In her second reincarnation, the karmic debt she brought with her was confusion. She had no idea what spiritual practice was, but she invested in it without regard for the cost. She was busy all her life, but in the end, it was all in vain.

The karmic debt she brought with her in her third reincarnation was greed. She could sacrifice the interests of others for her own benefit. Although she had seemingly upright excuses, it could not cover up the greed in her bones.

Now, in her fourth reincarnation, the type of karmic debt she brought with her was obviously pride, conceited pride. Yes, she would definitely die from it.

Although, she is really close to the perfect form.

So, it’s not impossible to try hard, if you can help her.

“Pah, where’s your sanity!”

(End of this chapter)