Chapter 5283 (Five Thousand Two Hundred and Eighty Three) Humiliation

The Gray Hand Man asked, “You mean the people from Tiecang that you often see?”

“Yes.” The man said, “As for the blue-armored man… well… I won’t say anything about it. He’s not a human, so there’s no need to think too much about it.”

The Gray Hand asked, “If you find something shameful sometimes, why do you still do it?”

The man said, “I have no choice. Many things… whether to do them or not, are not up to me to choose. People are always like this. Not only in that environment, but also in normal times… I also… I would do things that humiliate myself. Sometimes, it may just be to make it easier for myself to do certain things, and sometimes it is just to allow myself to… survive.”

The Gray Hands man asked, “Who are the people who usually bring you humiliation?”

The man said: “Those I can’t afford to offend…”

Before he finished speaking, the man felt that something was not right, and quickly said to the Gray Hand Man: “I’m not… talking about you… I’m talking about those ordinary people I can’t afford to offend, not including people like you… who are capable.”

Even though that person actually felt humiliated by the Gray-Handed and Brown-Handed people, he didn’t say it out loud. He had experienced humiliation many times in his life and had long been accustomed to it.

“It’s not the blue-armored people who usually make you feel humiliated, right?” asked the man with gray hands.

“Yes.” The man said, “They are all… Tiecang people. The Blue Armor people don’t have much ability and can’t do anything to me. I’m not… afraid of them… I can only bring humiliation to them, but they… can’t bring humiliation to me at all.”

The Gray Hands asked, “Have you ever hated those people who brought you humiliation?” “To say… to say I haven’t hated them, that’s a lie.” The man said, “I will tell you the truth, so… I must have hated them. But… what’s the use of hating them? They are more capable than me, and I am not, so… that’s it… Just like when I bullied the Blue Armored Man, what could the Blue Armored Man do?”

Just after saying this, the man seemed to have thought of something and quickly said to the Gray Hand Man, “I said… when I was in absolute darkness, I did long for light, but… but I… did not long for the light of the Blue Armored People. I must make this clear. The light I long for is… different from the light of the Blue Armored People. The Blue Armored People long for their light, and what I long for… maybe… maybe is just… to not be in that… unbearable darkness back then.”

Gray Hands learned more about the situation and asked, “What happened next?”

“Next, I…I found a little light.” said the man.

“You saw the light at this time?” The Gray Hand asked, “Then how did you feel when you saw it?”

“At that moment… I… felt an indescribable… excitement.” said the man.

“Excited about seeing a little light?” asked the Gray Hand Man.

“Yes, this… is very embarrassing… How can I… be excited about seeing a little light…” the man said, “But because my situation was special at the time, this… this does not represent my normal state. So… so at the time I didn’t feel… obviously… uncomfortable.”

(End of this chapter)