Chapter 162 Living towards death
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“Since you know his problem, how can you say there is no solution?” Xue Di asked puzzledly.

“It’s precisely because I know what’s wrong with him that I’m completely helpless,” said Bibi Dong.

“He wasn’t in a clear mind before. It was probably due to the sequelae of coming out of that hellhole of the City of Slaughter. He was in a state of half-crazy and half-awake for many years afterwards. But now, he seems to be completely awake.”

“He actually always knew that what he was pursuing was impossible to achieve, but he didn’t care about that before. All he was looking for was the pleasure of the pursuit. But now he is sober and there are more things he needs to consider.”

“But at the same time he couldn’t stop.”

“He is now just like me in the past. Even if he knows he has a problem, he won’t admit it openly. He would rather go down this path until the end.”

“At least it makes him look respectable.”

Nan Feng did not collapse and feel pain because his ideal could not be realized. He always knew that his ideal was just a fantasy and the human world could never be truly perfect.

Some darkness has to exist, because without darkness, there is no light.

A truly perfect world, but also an extremely desperate world.

He knows, he always has known.

It’s just that he didn’t care before, he was just a little bit stupid.

Now that his missing brain is back, he has to face this reality.

Nan Feng is a very stubborn person!
Even if he is wrong, he will keep making mistakes!
In other words, even though he knew there was a dead end ahead, he was unwilling to stop!
He was unwilling to compromise with this fucking reality!

It was precisely because she knew this that she had no choice.

“Unless he can find a new target, otherwise… he can almost be said to want to die.” Bibi Dong said.

Help humans? Help soul beasts? Or oppose the God Realm?

no point.

Whether humans are powerful, soul beasts are powerful, or the divine world continues to be powerful, it is all the same to him.

In essence, it is the law of the jungle anyway, so why should he change it? Why should he help those who are in a weak position? Anyway, when they become strong, they will still oppress the new weak like the previous group of rulers.

Reciprocating cycle.

If Nan Feng himself had the desire to rule, perhaps he would continue to work hard to become the new ruler, but unfortunately, he is not interested.

Empty despair, Nan Feng now had nothing that could support him to continue, so he gave up, and even lost the mood to fight back.

“In other words, he needs a stance?” Xue Di said.

“Or does he need a reason?”

“Yes, but he has completely abandoned his previous position.” Bibi Dong said.

“And he has no interest in being on either side of what’s already there.”

“I was wondering what position would allow him to continue, but I couldn’t find it.”

“Can’t he do it for himself?” Xue Di asked doubtfully.

Bibi Dong shook her head. “His self-desire is very weak. He can’t even support the most basic desire to survive, let alone support his actions.”

Nan Feng’s biggest problem is that his self-desire is too weak. Otherwise, even if his ideals are shattered, what does it matter? Isn’t it enough to just be the only one who is supreme?

But he is not interested in these things!

The reason why Nan Feng is so crazy is because he has abandoned a large part of himself, so he is fearless.

But it was also because he had abandoned too much of himself, that when he woke up, the little bit of self that was left couldn’t even support the most basic survival instinct.

When it came to balancing the importance of self and ideals, Nan Feng leaned too much towards the latter, so when his center of gravity collapsed, he couldn’t even stand steadily.

“Then… for others, is that okay?” Xue Di asked.

Bibi Dong was stunned. “I’m afraid this is unlikely.”

“Why?” Xue Di asked puzzledly.

“He…” Bibi Dong paused.

“He knows too much and is too realistic.”

“What do you mean?” Xue Di asked puzzled.

Bibi Dong thought for a while and said, “Do you know why he wants to do these things?” “Because he wants to do it?” Xue Di said.

“No, it’s because he believes, he is sure, that apart from him, no one else in the world would do such a thing like him.” Bibi Dong said.

“He needs a reason that he must be there, and that there is no other way except him.”

“If there is another way, another option, he has no interest in doing it.”

“There are others who will do it anyway. It will have the same result whether he does it or not, so he won’t do it.”

“You want him to live for others, but you have to make him believe that this is something that only he can do and that no one else can replace him.”

“And there is another big problem here. He is against others treating the individual as the only one.”

Xue Di was stunned, “What do you mean?”

“In other words, if you feel that he is irreplaceable and you cannot live without him, he will think you are unreasonable and will not want to pay attention to you,” said Bibi Dong.

“This… isn’t this a contradiction?” Xue Di was confused.

“It’s just a contradiction. What he needs and what he hates are the same.” Bibi Dong said.

“The things he needs are wrong, but those wrong things are exactly what he hates.”

“Then, he can’t accept these mistakes, that is, he can’t accept what he needs.”

“…”

“Is there something wrong with his brain?” Xue Di was completely confused.

“Yes.” Bibi Dong looked helpless.

“His sensibility and his rationality are completely opposed!”

“These two things can’t be balanced, they have to lean towards one side, or he’ll freeze!”

When emotion overwhelms reason, Nan Feng becomes crazy. He doesn’t care whether he can succeed or not, he just wants to do it.

When reason suppresses emotion, Nan Feng is desperate. Faced with a world that cannot be changed, he will choose to destroy this thing.

The former is a fanatical savior, and the latter is a desperate destroyer.

And when these two things were balanced, he was stuck.

In the past few years, Nan Feng has been switching between these two states, so the logic of his behavior is inexplicable, yet can be connected together.

She thought Nan Feng would continue like this, but now, he was stuck for no apparent reason!

After coming out of the Yin-Yang Eyes of Ice and Fire, Nan Feng’s thoughts became more and more stable.

This is not a good thing.

When his mind calmed down, he lost motivation.

“In other words, the only way to change him is to… mess up his brain?” Xue Di said.

“But this is impossible.” Bibi Dong said.

“You should have seen how powerful he is now. Even you are no match for him.”

“If you want to change him, you must have power that exceeds his and act with the intention of killing him. Otherwise, there is no way to break his balance.”

“Does he know it himself?” Xue Di asked.

“He knows, so he has to move forward.” Bibi Dong said.

“He wants to test, to lure Tang Chen in, to test the Shura God, because this is the only way to help him now.”

“He is trying to save himself, but if something unexpected happens with this method, he will be dead without a burial place.”

Nan Feng knew very well what he was doing, and this was the fundamental reason why she couldn’t interfere with him!

He was committing suicide, but this was his only way to survive.

The Walking Dead, let’s take a gamble.

So she couldn’t stop him.

I have a cold and feel dizzy, so I will only update once today…

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(End of this chapter)