Chapter 393: Dark Lights and Long River (XV)
“I said I love you, I love you very much.” Song Nian raised her hand, ignoring the pain on her shoulder from being pressed by Lu Zhinian, and said softly, “Every day I spend married to you, I feel it’s worth it.”

Lu Zhinian and Song Nian have been together for such a long time, but he never expected to hear the word “love” from Song Nian’s mouth.

Too heavy and too luxurious.

It was so luxurious that it seemed like he didn’t deserve it.

But now, Song Nian spoke every word so clearly.

Lu Zhinian felt sad for a moment.

He looked at Song Nian, the strength in his hands gradually loosened, an indescribable confusion spread in his eyes, “Do you love me?”

“I have loved you much earlier than you think. Lu Zhinian, I have always loved you.” Song Nian smiled, her eyes moist, “I will not marry a man I don’t love. Even if someone threatens me with my life, I will not compromise.”

Lu Zhinian was even more puzzled, “You love me, so why do you want to divorce me?”

Song Nian’s tears, which she had been holding back, fell. She looked at Lu Zhinian for a long time, and trembled softly, “Because… I don’t have much time left, Zhinian, I can’t let you watch me die in front of you.”

It was easy for Song Nian to know that she was suffering from a terminal illness. She only needed to go out without telling Lu Zhinian and get a test at a hospital that did not belong to the Lu Group, and she would know the truth.

“You’ve taken good care of me over the years. I’ve never thought that I’m terminally ill while I’m by your side.” Song Nian looked at Lu Zhinian and smiled. She said, “Zhinian, you said before that I’m hard to take care of. It must be true. I’m really hard to take care of.”

Lu Zhinian was speechless.

The grief between his eyebrows was clear, and he said in a low and difficult voice: “No matter how difficult it is to raise you, haven’t I raised you well? Everything will be fine in the future.”

Song Nian shook her head and said, “Do you know why I have been refusing to cooperate with the doctor’s examination recently? Because…”

Song Nian pointed at his heart and said, “It’s about to go on strike. I don’t know when I will lose consciousness. Lu Zhinian, I don’t want you to watch me die. Do you understand me?”

Lu Zhinian raised his hand, his fingers still trembling. He looked at Song Nian with a look of pity and said, “Niannian, you are only 25 years old.”

Song Nian nodded, and she touched Lu Zhinian’s eyebrows, “But you are already 31 years old, Lu Zhinian, how many years do you have left to spend with me?”

“I don’t want a child,” Lu Zhinian said anxiously. He stared at Song Nian, “Niannian, I don’t want a child. I just want you to be by my side.”

Song Nian still smiled, her tears had stopped, but she still looked at Lu Zhinian with a sad look, “I can’t always be by your side, Zhinian, I can’t give you a child, nor can I give you a healthy wife”

Lu Zhinian’s eyes were red, and he said firmly and slowly: “I don’t need anything, we just live in the present, isn’t that okay?”

Song Nian hugged Lu Zhinian, feeling the man’s momentary stiffness. She patted his back gently, her voice becoming softer, “Of course I can. I am the one who is destined to leave before you. I can have nothing and live in the present, but what are you going to do? Lu Zhinian, what are you going to do when I am gone in the future?”

“I can go with you”

Before Lu Zhinian could finish his words, Song Nian’s face turned pale and she covered his lips with her hands.

Tears welled up in her eyes, and she choked and said hoarsely, “Don’t say such things. Lu Zhinian, I want you to live well.”

That night, the two of them clung to each other.

I don’t know who started it first, but it seems like both sides want to be completely addicted and don’t want to survive.

Song Nian hugged Lu Zhinian tightly, and when she was at her lowest point, she still said, “Lu Zhinian, let’s get divorced.” “Don’t even think about it.” Lu Zhinian hugged her tighter, closed his eyes, and whispered hoarsely, “Even if I really have to watch you leave, I would rather endure this pain than let you leave alone without any worries.”

He bit her earlobe, and blood oozed out. “I want you to die in vain, thinking about me all the time.”

Song Nian thought that this was indeed Lu Zhinian’s character. He had been too gentle in the past two years and she almost forgot that he was essentially a very domineering person.

There was no way she could leave him, even though she had put all the dangers before him.

So, Song Nian nodded and said, “Okay, then I will leave with my memories of you.”

At the end of the New Year, Lu Zhinian took Song Nian to Switzerland.

There are the top doctors arranged by Lu Zhinian. They will use various methods to prolong Song Nian’s life as much as possible.

Song Nian knew that all this was useless.

But she didn’t want to discourage Lu Zhinian, so she let him do it and didn’t refuse.

Lu Zhinian was very concerned about her health. Every morning, he would hold regular meetings with the attending doctors to discuss the next maintenance plan.

Song Nian didn’t listen. She was immersed in the life she loved.

She bought a lot of things for Lu Zhinian. Just like the man had taken care of her in the past, now she was taking care of him seriously.

“These are the clothes I picked for you, for spring, summer, autumn and winter, all matched.” Song Nian pointed to the room full of clothes in front of her and said, “These are all classic styles, and they won’t go out of style easily.”

Lu Zhinian looked at her excited appearance with a slightly complicated expression. He said “hmm” softly, “Okay, I will wear the clothes prepared by Nian Nian from now on.”

Song Nian was very satisfied. She smiled and picked up a white suit. She said in a relaxed voice, “When my funeral starts, you will wear this suit! This suit is my favorite. You will look very handsome in it. When my soul sees it, maybe it will be reluctant to leave.”

Lu Zhinian couldn’t stand it anymore. His hands holding the clothes began to tremble. Finally, he couldn’t bear it anymore and threw the clothes in his hands to the ground.

For the first time in his life, the man hugged Song Nian and cried bitterly.

He said: “Niannian, I want you to live well. No matter how much it costs me, I want you to live well.”

Song Nian had a complicated expression. She let Lu Zhinian hold her for a long time, then sighed and said, “Zhi Nian, everyone has to leave, sooner or later. No matter how hard you try, the result will be like this.”

Lu Zhinian didn’t say anything. He hugged Song Nian and cried like a baby.

Song Nian listened to his sobs, which felt like a blunt knife cutting flesh.

Lu Zhinian’s efforts may have been effective. At least, Song Nian lived half a year longer than the doctor expected.

The scenery in Switzerland is beautiful in the autumn of this year.

Song Nian looked at the fallen leaves outside the window slowly falling, and she slowly closed her eyes.

She seemed to see Lu Zhinian walking towards her from not far away, holding her favorite iris in his hand.